M really scared me today – he’s never been like this with me. He says I need to start paying back my debts – was confused –what debts? ?

When I tried to question him he got mad like really mad, called me a stupid f**king b***h who needs to start paying her way. This evening I found out what he meant.

He brought this guy round to the flat, he came into my room. Oh god it was horrible, I can’t even write what happened… the smell of him…I can still smell it. I feel dirty, used and really scared. 

I was a mess afterwards. M just said get used to it. I tried to leave but he hit me. He’s never done that. What am I gonna do…trapped.