It’s all come to a head with Alice now. I had to actually call the police this morning, she wasn’t home when I got up this morning. I tried calling her, her friends, anyone I could think of. It turns out she hasn’t got many friends now, well the ones I knew of. She must me with M or whatever his name is.
I’ve just given a statement to police and they are looking for her, she’s got to be with him somewhere. How has it got to this? We used to talk, she’s my daughter… I just don’t know her anymore. I feel like it’s my fault, like I’ve done something wrong. How did this happen? I just don’t know?
Mum called me today. I really wanted her just to look after me and make it better but how can I even start to explain whats happened. What will she think of me what would dad say?
I always know when Im going to ‘pay’ as M puts it. We don’t go out, buys me something new to wear or make up and perfume. I cant do this any more. I really need to get help but M says if I tell someone he’ll make sure I’m shut up forever and nobody would believe a stupid schoolgirl anyway. I’ve actually been going back to school so I don’t have to be at the flat but picks me up from school in his car and hangs around me all weekend. I just don’t know how to talk to someone about whats really going on…
How do I get out of this???
Been at our place a lot the past couple of weeks. Not really at school much, why do I need school when I have M and our flat. M looks after me and gets me whatever I need.
We’ve got loads of mates M knows who come over, we listen to some tunes, smoke some weed and just hang out. So chilled, don’t know why I kept stressing about my GCSEs.
Some of the lads have been doing some coke too – they asked me to give it a try. Might do, M will look out for me. What’s the worst that can happen right??
M has a flat! Well actually he said WE have a flat, just for us so we can be on our own together, no-one else.
Just when I thought everything was s**t and he dumped me it’s all good again, more than good…amazing!
That was the surprise when we met in town. He was sorry he hadn’t seen me but had this surprise for me, then he took me there. At first I thought it was a bit scabby – not much furniture and a bit small but actually it’s ours and it has a bed. M joked that’s all we need! Least I know I didn’t do anything wrong the first time I guess.
Well we spent a lot of time in that bed this afternoon. He took more photos which I said I wasn’t sure about but he said he wanted them so I was always with him and he could remember me whenever he wanted.
I feel a bit funny when I think of those photos. M said all his mates do it and trust him…I guess I will.
I’m really worried about one of the girls in my tutor group. Alice has always been so good, really focused, always handing work in on time, but just recently things have changed. Not only is she off sick more than she is at school but when she is here she is distant.
Alice doesn’t seem to be with her group of friends very much and often alone. I’ve tried to meet with her but she’s avoiding me – not turning up when I’ve asked to see her after school.
I want to help but how do I make her understand? I know her parents are worried too as they have been in touch with school. We have a meeting booked next week but I’m just really concerned about how to approach this and find out what is going on.
Just when I thought it had all gone wrong M text me. His Mum had to go into hospital and he’s been really worried about her and hasn’t been able to use his phone in the hospital – I knew there must be a reason!
Anyway he’s meeting me in town tomorrow. I know I should be at school but I’ll just go in my uniform and change in the toilets when I’m out. Mum will never know, just need to convince little bro not to tell on me, a bit of cash should sort that!
Right need to get on and sort out my puffy spotty face – gotta look my best tomorrow!!!
So it’s been a few days and M hasn’t text still. I’m really confused now.
Did what he said at that dirty hotel maybe I did something wrong?? Its not sposed to be like this…I love him, I hope he texts soon.My friends keep bothering me wanting updates but what can I say? Oh yeah we had sex but now he doesn’t wanna know me – great!